Day 29: Is anybody Out there?

Sometimes I wonder why I decided to do this. Why did I make a commitment to post nightly for 365 days without missing a day?

I have to post sooooo late at night because I don't want anyone to know I'm doing this... I want to keep it my own... private... for the freedom it allows me to type whatever I want no matter how sensitive... I have to wait to post until my husband is sleeping. Sometimes I can hardly stay awake long enough to post, and because of that sometimes my posts are blah... short... boring... inconsequential ramblings of the days events.

I guess because of that when/if anyone checks in there is nothing of interest here.

Maybe I have no followers because I've felt the need to give my blog an adult warning... You won't find any XXX material here, or porn to your delight, or distaste, but some of the posts are very sensitive in nature and I don't want your children happening upon them. I am a mother and I would not appreciate my child happening upon posts with the types of things I have written about and am going to be writing about.

Beginning tomorrow night I am going to begin getting more into the "therapy" reason I am doing this. I am going to start writing about my childhood, on up through my adult situations, and in so doing hopefully I can make sense of why I am where I am in my life.

I am unhappy. Maybe I can figure out how to become happy. Maybe I'll just figure out how to deal with it all and become complacent.... maybe.... I'm hoping.

Happy Mother's day to all the Mommies out there and....

Nite World